on grace

ok. so… my goal was to write this blog post by the end of january. i’m cutting it a little close.  i keep wanting to write one about my “word of the year.” last year my word was peace. the year before that, joy. {click on the links to see the original posts}

this year, my word is going to be grace.

i’ve thought about it all month and i can’t seem to drop it and come up with an easier word. i keep praying about it and putting it off. really, grace? do i really need to focus on that for a whole year? i keep coming back to it, so i feel like God has something to show me. already, in the last few weeks it’s popped up in a million little ways.

like that one time i couldn’t do something the way i wanted to. i messed it up so bad. i was really getting down on myself for how i was stupid and clumsy and just not good enough. and someone said it, “give yourself grace, Kim.

or that one time a friend let me down. i was quick to say, “no worries, it’s alright” but in my heart, i was super hurt, did i really give grace? or the family member who just isn’t getting how much he may be hurting the rest of us by his actions, do i give grace or do i give judgement?

or that quote i read the other day,

You say grace before meals. all right. but i say grace before the concert and the opera, and grace before the play and pantomime, and grace before i open a book, and grace before sketching, painting, swimming, fencing, boxing, walking, playing, dancing, and grace before i dip the pen in the ink.” -GK Chesterton A Grace, collected poetry

um, wow, i was hit by it. do i really focus on grace in all that i do? should i?

or the one email i got from someone. i got it and then i cried. no i bawled like a baby. because i was SO disappointed. someone had said she was going to be able to do something for me. she had committed to it. i was BEYOND excited about it. but then she wrote to say that on second thought she couldn’t do it… the first time i read the email- i felt about the size of a penny. so small… all i could think was, why would she says yes and then no? what is wrong with me? would Jesus turn down my request? because i wasn’t good enough? because what i had asked for was beneath her in some way?  was my question, REALLY such a burden on this woman?  i was so hurt.and i am embarrassed to say, i cried for like half an hour and husbuddy even had to tell me i was being ridiculous.  then after i had a nap i reread it a couple times. at the end she said, “thank you for your grace and understanding.” wow, i wasn’t very gracious was i?

apparently i need to remember WHO  is gracious to me.

every. single. day.

  • i need to focus this year on what grace really means.
  • i need to have it reinforced in my brain what God’s grace is to me.
  • what grace i can give to other people in all circumstances.
  • what grace i can give to myself. my family. my friends. strangers.
  • i want to be a gracious woman. i’ve always thought that, but what does that mean?

so, here is a definition of grace.

grace:

  1. unmerited divine favor/assistance given humans for their sanctification.
    • God makes available His favor on behalf of sinners, who do not deserve it. it is a free gift. {read that? it’s a given, free gift!}
  2.  simple elegance or refinement of movement
    • {i think it’s funny that my etsy shop is named “miss grace designs” because my mother always called me “miss grace” because i’m such a klutz. so i’m not sure if this is really some other part of thinking through my word of the year…i don’t know, maybe my klutziness should be remembered daily too and i should seek to be more “refined in movement” and ask God for grace about that… i’m just putting that out there. hee hee.} 

of course, Grace is all over the bible. so i’ll be doing a little more research about that. but for today, this verse stuck out to me. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 (ESV)

” Now may our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God our Father, who loved us and gave us eternal comfort and good hope through grace,  comfort your hearts and establish them in every good work and word.”

and some inspiration from good ol’ John Piper:

“Grace is the pleasure of God to magnify worth of God by giving sinners the right and power to delight in God without obscuring the glory of God.”

um wow, right? i mean, it’s going to take a month at least just to process that one. and another:

“why are you downcast o my soul, and why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God. For He is a God of matchless grace. He sanctifies by grace. He sustains faith by grace. And he will glorify you by grace. You cannot earn it or deserve it or merit it. It is free. Believe it. Rest in it. delight in it. And it is yours.” –Why hope? Grace! April 13, 1989

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so friends, i picked my word. have you picked yours? don’t worry. you still have time. a whole 11 months in fact. i mean, look at me. my “new years day post” turned into the 28th day of the new year post… hee hee.

xoxo-kimberly renee

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2 Responses to on grace

  1. Pamela holderman January 29, 2015 at 12:55 am #

    Awesome post. I will help you remember grace if you help me to “rejoice” which is my word which I already struggle with. And oh yes you have a short being living with you who shouts “grace” with her middle name and will give you a lot of grace…at least until she is a teenager.

  2. Sherri Brown January 29, 2015 at 8:56 am #

    Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!

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