it’s been one of those days. one of those days when i realize how depraved i am.
- what a grumpy person i am. i get so annoyed so easily. something isn’t going my way. someone cuts me off or someone says something that offends me. i immediately am put on edge. it stays with me the entire day.
- what a basket case full of stress i am. this season is full of ridiculous amount of stress. somehow i’m letting it get to me. the bible says not to worry. not to be anxious about anything. Jesus says, not to worry about what i should eat or what i should wear… yet i worry about e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.
- what a complainer i am. nothing is going the way i want it to. so i complain about it. like the Israelites who complained in the desert during the Exodus when they had to eat the same god-given bread day after day. i complain about my god-given moments…it’s a gift…and yet i complain.
- what a selfish person. geez. i’m so disappointed in myself.
who am i? why can’t i be better? what am i doing? why am i such a horrible person? these thoughts have been running through my head all day.
then i remember. and i confess because i am a sinner. i can’t do anything on my own. i can’t even be a “good” person. i need Jesus.
and that’s the reason for this time of year, isn’t it?
it’s a season of expectantly waiting. for Jesus… the only ONE who can make me anything more than a sinner. i am in eager anticipation for HIS arrival. The Prince of PEACE. may He show Himself every day this season. may He call all of us to see how much we NEED him.
“For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.”
blessings this holiday season. may we all be reminded of the reason.