Oh HIiiiii blog…. it’s been a month since I was last here… or more.
Ha. Well, let’s just say January is always rough on me. I had a hard time getting my act together to write anything. I have had this post in my mind since, oh, January 4th or 5th? Anyway, I just wanted to share, more for personal accountability then anything else, my word for the year. I’ve posted about this a few times in the past… like here, and here.
Last year my word was HOPE. Mainly because I dealt with a lot of panic and post partum at the beginning of the year last year. But it was the perfect word to carry me through another hard year.
This year, it seems cliche to say, my word is GRACE.
There was a point in the last year, I’m not exactly sure when, sometime in the fall when I remember crying before bed and talking to Husbuddy about all the things that were stressing me out. And I remember him saying to me, it has stuck with me clear as day, “Kim, it’s like you think that no one else has to be perfect, that they are all covered in the grace of Christ, but YOU expect yourself to be perfect. You put such impossible expectations on yourself and you hold yourself to such a high standard that there is no way you can meet that! You need Jesus’s Grace to meet you in all of this!”
wisdom right there, am I right?
So, the word :: Grace.
I need the grace of Jesus to permeate EVERY.SINGLE.INCH of my heart, my soul, my brain.
like I said, cliche. But I can’t get over it because this verse keeps popping in my head:
“For from his fullness we have all received, grace upon grace” John 1:16
I mean, wow. Grace UPON Grace.
Like a cup overflowing with grace. That is what I’m picturing in my head. It’s hard to imagine when I’m such a cup half empty kind of person sometimes!
Grace for TODAY.
Grace for my heart.
I was hoping to make a pretty picture like I have before to hang and remind myself of my word… but hey. That didn’t happen the entire month so I’m just going for this blog post. I mean, that’s kinda my word right?
Grace for myself when I can’t get everything done.
Grace TO myself. Speak grace TO myself! Not condemnation!
Grace for those around me when they don’t fulfill my expectations…
Grace for my husband, for my girls.
Grace for my parenting. I’m not perfect, how can I be? I’m still new to this and I’m learning!
Grace to be a more Grace-FULL person.
Grace to be able to serve others better.
Grace to fail. -this one feels huge to me. Sometimes I’m so scared of failing I don’t start. Or I fail and I beat myself up so hard.
I know all about Grace in my head. Or so sometimes I tell myself I think I do. But this year I want to focus on grace so it penetrates into my heart.
“There is a remnant, chosen by grace. but if it is by grace, it is no longer on the basis of works, otherwise grace would no longer be grace.” Romans 11:6
“And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may abound in every good work” 2 Corinthians 9:8
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
These are just some of my thoughts today. Hopefully I will continue to grow and think about Grace this year. That is the goal anyway. Ha!
I guess my word kind of works for the fact that I didn’t get this post out until February, right?
at least I’ll keep telling myself that!
So, what about you? Do you have a word for the year? Anyone else just putting their thoughts together now that it is February? #tellmei’mnottheonlyone! #canwejuststartthenewyearinFeb?