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a random piece of my heart…”Only Hope I’ve Got”

 

RMNP path2  i’ve been listening to this song: “Only Hope I’ve Got” by Elle Holcomb on repeat the last few months. {ever since i went to her concert  for mother’s day} i just can’t get over this song!  go ahead, click on the link and listen to it. or you can read the lyrics at the end of the post.

anyway, the song has really resonated with me because it reminds me over and over, that ALL i have is a gift. Even my HOPE.  sometimes, i think {like most people maybe?}, i look at the things in my life; i look at my family, at my job, at my house and car  and things, and think they are mine.

like a little toddler, i claim them as my my own.

and yet, sometimes those things can be taken away. sometimes they are only ours for a short while. sometimes those things actually control us somehow. sometimes those things  aren’t really mine to begin with.

sometimes, it’s not about the THINGS anyway, is it?

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i really like the chorus, because i feel like it has to be my prayer every day.  it goes:  ” I don’t wanna to  tell some arrogant story, or let myself believe i’m you! I don’t wanna be a thief who’s stealing Your glory… will you help remind me of what is true? The ONLY hope I’ve got, it’s You…

and actually, i thought the first line was “i don’t wanna tell some American story…” until i looked it up just now. HA whoops. but anyway, american or arrogant, i’m not sure it’s that different. either way, i don’t want my story to be about me and what i can get out of life.  i want to be reminded that I am NOT God. when i thought of it as “american” i thought of the “american dream” and really, there’s not that much fulfilling in that lie(to have the perfect job, get the house with a picket fence in suburbs, and have lots of money) anyway. that’s not the point of life,  right?

and i think every day there is a fight going on in our souls. a fight for “who” gets the glory. who is Lord, who is in charge, who is number 1.

every, single, darn day we have to give up that fight. let go of control. i don’t want to be a thief stealing from God! because wowa! that image is scary! it HAS to be about God. He HAS to be the one getting ALL the glory.

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and then, the last verse hits me and almost makes me cry, “well it’s only by Your grace…that I heard You whisper my name…” um, yea, i can’t even claim my faith! it’s only by His grace that i heard a whisper! have y’all ever even THOUGHT about that before?

“i don’t have the power to save- to change a heart, Could you come and change my heart.”  i can’t change my own heart. HOW humbling is that? because really, if i try to change my own heart, i’m trying to save myself. and nope, that doesn’t work. everything i have, my ONLY HOPE, is the Lord.

everything GOOD is His alone.

i am nothing. He is EVERYTHING.

can i get an amen out there?


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Only Hope I’ve Got Elle Holcomb

I take all the gifts that You have given and I stake my claim like they’re my own,
Will You help me when I forget to remember, the good I’ve got is yours alone.

Chorus:
Oh ’cause I don’t wanna tell some arrogant story
Or let myself believe I’m you!
I don’t wanna be a thief who’s stealing Your glory…
Will You help remind me of what is true? The ONLY hope I’ve got, it’s You,You.
It’s You,You.

Or do I think I have anything to offer, when You have overcome the world?
Couldn’t take Your place, ’cause You’re the Author of the greatest love this world has known.

Chorus

Well it’s only by Your grace…
That I heard You whisper my name,
I don’t have the power to save – to change a heart,
Could You come and change my heart.

Chorus

xoxo-kimberly renee

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on grace

ok. so… my goal was to write this blog post by the end of january. i’m cutting it a little close.  i keep wanting to write one about my “word of the year.” last year my word was peace. the year before that, joy. {click on the links to see the original posts}

this year, my word is going to be grace.

i’ve thought about it all month and i can’t seem to drop it and come up with an easier word. i keep praying about it and putting it off. really, grace? do i really need to focus on that for a whole year? i keep coming back to it, so i feel like God has something to show me. already, in the last few weeks it’s popped up in a million little ways.

like that one time i couldn’t do something the way i wanted to. i messed it up so bad. i was really getting down on myself for how i was stupid and clumsy and just not good enough. and someone said it, “give yourself grace, Kim.

or that one time a friend let me down. i was quick to say, “no worries, it’s alright” but in my heart, i was super hurt, did i really give grace? or the family member who just isn’t getting how much he may be hurting the rest of us by his actions, do i give grace or do i give judgement?

or that quote i read the other day,

You say grace before meals. all right. but i say grace before the concert and the opera, and grace before the play and pantomime, and grace before i open a book, and grace before sketching, painting, swimming, fencing, boxing, walking, playing, dancing, and grace before i dip the pen in the ink.” -GK Chesterton A Grace, collected poetry

um, wow, i was hit by it. do i really focus on grace in all that i do? should i?

or the one email i got from someone. i got it and then i cried. no i bawled like a baby. because i was SO disappointed. someone had said she was going to be able to do something for me. she had committed to it. i was BEYOND excited about it. but then she wrote to say that on second thought she couldn’t do it… the first time i read the email- i felt about the size of a penny. so small… all i could think was, why would she says yes and then no? what is wrong with me? would Jesus turn down my request? because i wasn’t good enough? because what i had asked for was beneath her in some way?  was my question, REALLY such a burden on this woman?  i was so hurt.and i am embarrassed to say, i cried for like half an hour and husbuddy even had to tell me i was being ridiculous.  then after i had a nap i reread it a couple times. at the end she said, “thank you for your grace and understanding.” wow, i wasn’t very gracious was i?

apparently i need to remember WHO  is gracious to me.

every. single. day.

  • i need to focus this year on what grace really means.
  • i need to have it reinforced in my brain what God’s grace is to me.
  • what grace i can give to other people in all circumstances.
  • what grace i can give to myself. my family. my friends. strangers.
  • i want to be a gracious woman. i’ve always thought that, but what does that mean?

so, here is a definition of grace.

grace:

  1. unmerited divine favor/assistance given humans for their sanctification.
    • God makes available His favor on behalf of sinners, who do not deserve it. it is a free gift. {read that? it’s a given, free gift!}
  2.  simple elegance or refinement of movement
    • {i think it’s funny that my etsy shop is named “miss grace designs” because my mother always called me “miss grace” because i’m such a klutz. so i’m not sure if this is really some other part of thinking through my word of the year…i don’t know, maybe my klutziness should be remembered daily too and i should seek to be more “refined in movement” and ask God for grace about that… i’m just putting that out there. hee hee.} 

of course, Grace is all over the bible. so i’ll be doing a little more research about that. but for today, this verse stuck out to me. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 (ESV)

” Now may our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God our Father, who loved us and gave us eternal comfort and good hope through grace,  comfort your hearts and establish them in every good work and word.”

and some inspiration from good ol’ John Piper:

“Grace is the pleasure of God to magnify worth of God by giving sinners the right and power to delight in God without obscuring the glory of God.”

um wow, right? i mean, it’s going to take a month at least just to process that one. and another:

“why are you downcast o my soul, and why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God. For He is a God of matchless grace. He sanctifies by grace. He sustains faith by grace. And he will glorify you by grace. You cannot earn it or deserve it or merit it. It is free. Believe it. Rest in it. delight in it. And it is yours.” –Why hope? Grace! April 13, 1989

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so friends, i picked my word. have you picked yours? don’t worry. you still have time. a whole 11 months in fact. i mean, look at me. my “new years day post” turned into the 28th day of the new year post… hee hee.

xoxo-kimberly renee

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on failure

IMG_2327_vintage i’ve never really “failed” at something that i tried really hard at before. sure, i fail at certain exercise attempts or keeping a strict diet… but have i ever failed a class? a test? nope.

so that’s why a little letter last week rocked me. it had big words, without explanation, typed in very unsympathetic font: FAIL.

ack. i failed? how horrible! how embarrassing. i actually felt like i had sinned.

Husbuddy said that was silly, we all fail. we’re not perfect. it never says, “thou shall not fail in the bible”.

see, i know that. i know i’m not perfect. actually, i know that i’m pretty mediocre at pretty much everything i do. i was never on top of my class or anything, but i’ve always at least PASSED. even when i thought i had “failed” my freshmen french class in college, i still got a C {oh the horror}! i was totally embarrassed to tell my parents, and i had all sorts of excuses lined up-like my degree was time consuming, i had taken too many credits that semester, i had visited the teacher’s office hours every week!  but that C still hung over my head and i was ashamed.

this time, i have no excuse. i paid a lot of money to take a test, that i need to pass in order to finish my architecture education… and i FAILED.  and i feel shame and horror at the same time.

but then i hear a whisper.

i hear a whisper that says to me, peace. you need ME.

i was reminded. i NEED God more than anything. i can do NOTHING without Him. i will always fail without Him. in my head, sometimes i may think that i can do it myself…i can work hard enough, study long enough, push myself hard enough, almost that i can save myself if i just work hard. but God gently reminds me, through a letter with big ugly words, that i need Him more than anything else.

“For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.”

Ephesians 2:8-9

“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever”

Psalm 73:26

does that take away my frustration with myself? not really. but it does take away my shame. and i am humbled. and i am thankful that God reminds me over and over and over that i need Him.

we all NEED Him. we will all fail without Him. can i get an amen?

xo-kimberly renee

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miss A’s birthday and a little book review.

today is my little sister’s birthday! Happy Birthday Miss A!

amy

she’s the sweetest person you’ll ever meet. i promise you. if you haven’t met her, you should. today she turns 22 and i told her to sing the taylor swift song :22 {ok, this version is a cappella, and it’s pretty cool}  on the top of her lungs all day. hee hee

amy, do.it.

haha. awe, i miss her so much.

so, for her birthday gift i got her something special. i’ve been hearing a lot about this book: Grace for the Good Girl by one of my favorite bloggers from Chatting at the Sky.  i’ve been dying to read it for myself.

finally, i used the excuse to spend the money on it- for her…then i read it, wrote all over it, shared my heart all the way through it, and then gave it to her.  have you ever done this for someone? or gotten a gift like this? i have. and it’s AWESOME. it’s so fun to read through a book with notes written all over it from a person i love, it connects you. especially when they are far away.  i thought this would be a good way to have a long distance “book club” with my dear sister friend.

anyway, it was SUCH a good read ! and since miss A is a little mini-me (as in we are SO alike) i am hoping that she likes it as much as i did. it really hits me on the mark in so many ways. i’m so good at trying to be “good enough” -even to the point where i try not to need Jesus. i am so good at working hard, being worried about doing things right, and not very good at letting go and resting in the freedom of Christ. that is what this book is about! it talks about the masks we “good girls” wear to cover up how we are really feeling, to say the right things, to be “fine” with everything.  emily freeman did an amazing job capturing me in a book and then calling me to a better life.

in review: Grace for the Good Girl is a great book that i highly recommend. { note: i was in no way paid or solicited for this review…just sharing what i found!}

here is one of my favorite quotes that has stuck with me the last couple of weeks:

“in the end, i don’t want to see Jesus fully and in person, look expectantly toward him to finally receive the freedom and rest of my salvation, and hear him say, “sweet daughter, you have had it all along, but you chose not to believe. You have had abundance, but you have lived in want. I gave you freedom, but you lived in chains. I gave you forgiveness, but you lived with guilt. I gave you completeness but you hid behind your girl-made masks and pretend identities”

-emily freeman. Grace for the Good Girl pg. 218

sweet sister, i hope you enjoy my gift. but more than that, i hope you know how much i love you!! i can’t wait until we can live closer and share more life together. you’re the best and you’re 22! 🙂  have an amazing day! k and a at tulum

love, kimberly renee

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a quote for today

snowflake quote

i love this quote i found yesterday while reading a new book, “Grace for the Good Girl” i love it because it is. so. true.  i’ve been letting this quote be a reminder to me. may it be a reminder to you too! especially going into lots of quality time with family and friends!

xoxo-kimberly renee

 

 

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shop update!

i’ve finally reopened my etsy shop after the move! the reason it took so long is because there have been a few changes. 🙂

i’ve renamed it “miss grace designs” by kimberly renee

miss grace designs comes from a childhood nickname. see, i am a klutz. during my first year of college i calculated that i fell up or down every single staircase on campus… at least once. i’m not even joking. when i was little, my mom used to call me “miss grace” whenever i spilled something, tripped, knocked something over, or did something klutzy. it was so embarrassing. but looking back, it’s just who i am.

i used this name because grace doesn’t just mean graceful in action {the definition being: Seemingly effortless beauty or charm of movement, form, or proportion.”}– it also means: “A favor rendered by one who need not do so” or “unmerited favor” or “the free gift of God”.  i have the free gift grace of God in my life so i must share that grace. all the things in my shop are just things that i must share with the world. i’ve made them by the grace of God, and i pray that everything i do give glory to God. so, the title has changed.

the old listings are still there and i have so many plans for new ones to come. i’ll keep you posted! thanks for checking out my little slice of etsy!

xo-kimberly renee.

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