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Spiritual stinginess and Jonah {a blessing for today}

I never thought of myself as opinionated enough or a strong enough personality to have “enemies” before. I would think, sure, we don’t really get along, or we are just in different circles, or maybe my sister was an “enemy” for a day because we fought over something. But man, when you start putting your heart out there, serving and loving people and trying to do the right thing, it’s actually not too hard to make enemies.

Ha. I mean, as  a pastor’s wife, I’m getting to witness first hand how people are going to be looking out for number one, not always going to agree, not always going to support or even care for you.  Any kind of management position or area of life where you work with people really- people are going to be disappointed, hurt, lash out, disagree and fight. It’s just human. Well, part of being human is learning how to deal with those people.

We can ignore. Run away. Hide it. Push. Pull them, Gossip, make sure everyone else knows how horrible they are. Or even tell them how wrong they are…

or we can love.

Everyone knows the story of Jonah, don’t they? The story of where Jonah hears from God that he needs to head to Ninevah to tell them to repent and that God is going to rain down justice. But instead he heads the other direction. Runs away from God, gets thrown into the ocean, eaten by a fish and then spit out three days later. Jonah decides, hey I better listen to God and go do what He wants me to do.

We all know that story, even if we don’t ever read the bible, right?

Well, what about the 4th chapter of the book? Do we all know that part? It’s not usually part of the Sunday school curriculum.  It explains how at the end of Chapter 3 the entire city starts to repent, even the king and so God relents from doing disaster. The people of Ninevah are horrible people, basically Jonah’s (a good jew) enemies. And yet, God doesn’t destroy them because they have had a change of heart. Well, Jonah gets super mad about it and pouts. So mad that he says he might as well die. He then decides to sit outside the city and wait and watch for the coming disaster upon the city. Surely God won’t really forgive them.

He says, “I knew you are a gracious God and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and relenting from disaster.”(Jonah 4:2) BUT… basically, how can you forgive them? It would be better for me to just die.

This chapter shows the depth of the human heart. It shows that God knows our human heart and whether it is a whole city or a single heart, He is in the business of mercy and grace and purifying ugly hearts. You know, a heart where we can say one thing and desire another…How Jonah was so mad about his enemies getting off free. How he sat and just waited for God to do something to them. Then God, knowing his heart, wanted to teach that heart a little of his mercy. He had a tree or a vine grow up over night to give him shade. The next night he had a worm destroy the tree so that it withered and died. Jonah is so mad about that that he says he might as well die, again!

Can we say, Drama king?  Jonah has more feelings and compassion for the plant then he does for all the people in the whole city of Ninevah. Goes to shows where his heart is, and how God is trying to teach him.

Well, you and I can be like that, can’t we? We can praise God that He is ALL THE THINGS in verse 2 of chapter 4… gracious, merciful, slow to anger, abounding in love…TO ME…

but then we can be “spiritually stingy” when it comes to showing those things to others.

The Ninevites were Jonah’s enemies- hard horrible and cruel people who spiritually didn’t know their “right hand from their left”(v.11) Like Jonah, we’ve been hurt or seen horrible things done by “enemies” of our own. Maybe it’s a murderer or adulterer you see on tv that you know deserves justice. Maybe it’s a family member who is abusive, verbally or emotionally. Maybe it’s a friend who has just been hurtful in how they’ve acted or spoken.  “Enemies” who are horrible, cruel, self-righteous, proud, hurtful in their own ways.

It is hard at times to see them the way God saw the Ninevites…it’s easier and more human to act like Jonah, waiting and watching to see how God will bring justice on them for what they have done.

BUT GOD.

But God. God was merciful on those Ninevites and He is merciful on our enemies too. That is why Jesus calls us to  love our enemies and even to pray for them!(Matthew 5:44). God was trying to teach Jonah the same thing that Jesus preached in the Sermon on the Mount. Crazy how He is still trying to teach you and me that today.

“Friends, the real scope of the width of God’s mercy is found in the outstretched arms of Jesus on the cross. That’s the length and depth and breadth to which the love of God will go. So how can we, who know the grace and mercy of Christ in our lives, be less than gracious and merciful to others?” -Krista Williams, First5.org

Amen and amen.

{A lot of the ideas for today’s post came from a quick quiet time with First5.org this morning. If you’re looking for a daily devotional to be guided daily in time learning the Word, I highly recommend this devotional! You can get the app and it will automatically be sent to your phone daily.}

And finally, I’m just dwelling in this quote from CS Lewis:

“As long as you are proud you cannot know God. A proud man is always looking down on things and people: and of course as long as you are looking down you cannot see something that is above you.”

Friends, may we be humble people, loving others, even our enemies, and looking up to what God is doing in our lives.

xoxo-kimberly renee

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a birthday party for a little miss 1 year old

well, it’s been forever and a day since i’ve blogged. uh hem. sorry about that. the holidays distracted me. and so did this little girl. who turned 1 last sunday on the 4th.

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we had a little pink and gold party for her.

my parents laughed and said that the party was really for me. ha. i had fun making it pretty. so ya, i guess it was for me.

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we had appetizers, cupcakes and of course, macaroons. because what 1 year old girl birthday party doesn’t NEED those? ha. ok, maybe that was the most expensive part of the party… so not really a need. haha. but they’re pretty and yummy.  blurry-greating visitors

the little miss had fun welcoming everyone to her party in her little pink tutu and pig tails.

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she even had a little gold crown cat ears with her pig tails.

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and the balloons were a hit.

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i’m so very thankful for this little sweetpea. we are SO blessed to be her parents!  family

Sophia didn’t know what to think of everyone singing to her.    candle checking out the cupcake

and it took her a little while to get comfortable with the idea that she was allowed to eat the cupcake. we had to break it apart for her to dig in…

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but…

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then there was NO problem.  cupcake chowing2

Happy 1 Year Sophia! it’s been such a fun year!        birthday family after cupcake

we love you!

xoxo-kimberly renee

 

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merry christmas!

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we wish you a wonderful Christmas! we will be celebrating Jesus Christ’s birth today. as a new mom, i am finding myself marveling at what Mary experienced that very first Christmas 2000 years ago. i am in awe in a new way this year! Jesus, our Lord and a baby… at the same time.

“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder, and his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace”

Isaiah 9:6

may you have a beautiful day! love and peace,

Kimberly Renee
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counting 8 years with my husbuddy

{warning: mush-lovey-dovey-fest}

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dearest husbuddy,

we’ve had 8 years of laughing together and seeking God’s will,

96 months of doing life side by side,

416 weeks of adventures and exploring together,

2,920 mornings of opening my eyes to see your smile,

70,080 hours of knowing my heart belongs to you,

4,204,800 minutes learning how to love you better,

255,288,000 seconds thanking God that i have you by my side.

8 years, 7 homes, 6 years of schooling, 5 states, 4 architecture firms, 3 masters programs, our family of 2… grew by 1 puppy and 1 baby girl… later…(the math kinda failed there)  and my heart is more yours then ever. i am so blessed to love you every day and i’m so thankful for your love to me. you’re the best husbuddy and i thank God for you!

Happy 8th Anniversary!!

xoxo-kimberly renee

{to see other anniversary posts, click on links: 7th, 6th, 5th, 4th}

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notes to Sophia

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after one of our first prenatal doctors appointments last summer, we stopped by barnes and noble and bought this book. i have big hopes for this little journal. it is a journal that i am starting to fill with notes to Sophia.

i hope to give it to her when she is 18 or 21 or whenever i feel is right. i did something similar when i was in jr./highschool/college… i wrote letters to my future husband…lol, i was that cheesy. but i remember giving them to him on our wedding day. i was giving him my heart.

this will be similar. but mother to daughter.

i hope to fill it with letters and prayers throughout her childhood.

i pray that one day, when she reads this, she will know my heart and love for her.

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there are little notes in this book already, some i started before she was even born! little messages and little love letters that i can’t wait to share with her!  i know i’ll forget things… and i don’t want to… so i’m writing them down.

i also wonder, what if i ever have to leave her? i know it’s morbid…but we never know how many days we have. i worry and wonder, how will she know my love for her unless i write it down?

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my hope and prayer is that i can have a journal like this for each one of my children{if we get blessed with any more!}. 

my hope and prayer is that through this journal, through my love for her, she will see God’s love for her in every step of life.

{this idea isn’t original. i actually first saw it on Ashley Ann’s blog}

have any of you ever done this?? any suggestions? i’d love to hear!

xoxo-kimberly renee

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Puppycake’s wishes you a merry christmas

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this picture is old, don’t worry, i didn’t make him sit through this torture again.

but puppycakes wanted to wish every one of our dear friends, near and far, a very Merry Christmas!

may it be full of love and laughter and light. blessings my friends.

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xoxo-kimberly renee AND samwise calvin {aka-puppycakes}

 

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Anniversary Adventures {part 2}

 

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the next morning {after sleeping up in the loft with a tiny little ladder}we woke up to this beautiful view. the fog was breathtaking.

 

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for the  second day of our anniversary adventure we headed up into Shenandoah National Park and drove along Skyline Drive. it was fun to be in “mountains” again. we reminisced of Idaho and Montana and Washington and Colorado… we maybe should have not reminded ourselves of those beautiful places we still think of as “home“… even so, we really tried to soak up  the beauty and the views.

have any of you ever been there? it really is beautiful!

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we took turns driving because Skyline Drive is a drive along ridge of mountains. it’s really twisty with views at every other turn so we wanted to have equal time just looking.

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it was so fun to be able to see so far! it’s such a rare occurrence out here in the East and we miss big sky and sweeping views of the west.

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we drove for a while, pulling off at view points. then we stopped at the hike that Husbuddy had planned for us. we had researched it and had found one of the most recommended hikes to a waterfall view.

i can imagine the waterfall would be quite the sight in spring/early summer.

it was a little bit of a disappointment in the middle of august… not going to lie.

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especially since there were probably 50 other people down there when we were. womp womp.

oh well. like i said, we shouldn’t have reminisced about the west prior to this…

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it was still really pretty and we really enjoyed a little hike and getting out in nature! and it was SO different than any hike we’ve ever done before because you start at the top. see, we were driving along the ridge, so when you pull of to go on a hike, you hike down first.

that means you have the hard hike all the way back up at the end. kind of backwards from normal! ha. and this prego lady did her fair share of huffing and puffing. hee hee. but it was so worth it! i love to hike and it was fun to get out!

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this is me at the end of the hike barely able to breathe and totally sweaty acting super excited because Husbuddy wanted to show how excited we were to be on a little bit of the appalachain trail {behind me}.

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after the hike we finished the drive back to the cabin and spent the evening relaxing and reading next to the view.

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we had such a wonderful anniversary adventure! it was so wonderful i even cried on the way home because i was so sad it was over. i blame my pregnancy hormones!

i’m blessed with such a wonderful man to share life with and to go on adventures with. i thank God for him every day. Happy 7th Anniversary sweetheart!

xoxo-kimberly renee

 

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