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a prayer for my baby girl

she really could be here any day now. that is so crazy to think about. i’m so excited and yet totally terrified. i am writing this little piece of  my heart a little timidly. i’m not sure i want to publish this for the world to read, but i write this because it is my heart open and true that glorifies God the most.

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Dear Lord, 

for my sweet baby girl, i pray. this girl that you’re bringing into our lives this Christmas is a gift. like a gift wrapped under the tree, just waiting to be opened, i wait for this little arrival. thank you for such an amazing gift!! but even though it is a free gift for us, it is a gift that i give back to you, knowing fully well that you’re hands are stronger than mine to hold her tight, knowing fully well, that You are her real Father.

as she grows, these things i pray: may she fall in love with you early so that she may grow in confidence in You alone and not in any other.

may she grow in courage and strength like Esther who stood up for her beliefs and her people. may this strength and courage help her to face the dangers of the world, but may she know it only comes from You.

Lord, bless my daughter. grow her to be a woman of God.

may she grow in love like Ruth who would not leave her mother-in-law’s side when given the chance. may this love teach her what real grace means so that she may treat all those around her with true love and live in grace daily.

Lord, bless my daughter. grow her to be a woman of God.

may she grow in hope like Mary, who trusted that You are a God who works miracles. may this hope teach her about faith, peace and joy, which are all just gifts from You, nothing that she can make up for herself. may you bless her with these gifts. 

Lord, bless my daughter. grow her to be a woman of God.

i need you, Lord, in every minute of every day to help me raise her to become the girl, the woman, that you’ve created her to be. i need you Lord, as i do not even know HOW to pray for her, HOW to be a mother to her, or even HOW to love her like You do. i know that you will take this feeble attempt at prayer and use it and show me more HOW to do all these things.

Lord, even as i am overwhelmed by the greatness of this gift and the huge responsibility, i thank you for her.  i thank you for such an amazing gift.

amen.

 xoxo-kimberly renee
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my little friend Owen {and God’s providence}

today, i’m going to share with you a little bit of my heart. i want to talk about friends. about money. and about the providence of God.

how is that for a way-over-the-top  and ambitious blog post? ha! 

i have a little friend named Owen. if you’ve followed me for a while you’ve heard about him once or twice… hee hee. we first met almost 3 years ago when he was born February 2011 with a LOT of complications at the Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia (CHOP). he is a champ of a little boy! he was born without his esophagus connected {you can read his whole diagnosis and full story hereand the first few days of his life were really scary.

then after his first birthday he got really sick again and ended up down in CHOP for an extended stay. he’s a little fighter though and after some of the hardest months of his poor parent’s lives, he came home.

it hasn’t been easy, but now he a smiley little dude who loves to chat with his grandparents on skype, go on walks with his dad, and read books with his mom. he is a little rock star!

he still has to be fed with a feeding tube through the stomach and he has multiple therapy sessions  every week in order to help him grow the best that he can. he is learning how to push himself with a little gait trainer and loves his tricycle.  he just had surgery this summer to give him a thumb! for Halloween he was Max from his favorite book Where the Wild Things Are!

even though he has had such a rough start in life, this little boy is one of the happiest little boys i have ever met. i am so blessed every time i get to hold him or laugh with him!

he reminds me of God’s providence in everything in life. God is in control of this little boy’s life and that is evident EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. Owen was not expected by the doctors to continue breathing when they took him off the breathing tube in the first couple weeks of his life… but God continue to fill his lungs with air. he was a living miracle from the beginning!

there have been countless miracles in his short little life. the power of prayer has been amazing to watch. 

and every day, it is all God.

to His glory, this little boy is a living, breathing testimony that God provides. you can follow more of his story on his blog. but i wanted to mention one more thing here.

his parents need to buy a van because the little dude is getting bigger. he may soon have more equipment that will be hard to fit in their car and soon he will get too big to be able to lift in and out of a car seat. Joel and Sharon also have a little brother on the way, so to fit two carseats into their current car along with Owen’s special stroller is out of the question. the problem is that these vans are WAY beyond the normal price range for a car. $67,000 more than a normal car!! especially to get outfitted with all the special needs equipment! on their blog Joel is asking for any help that anyone would want to give. {please feel free to read Joel’s post here}

so i wanted to share with you, my dear friends, the opportunity to provide anything you can. no matter how small.

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God provides. He provides Owen’s breath every day. He provides our very breath. and He also uses us to provide for others.

the same day that Joel’s blog came out about the van, in my devotional i read these verses:

“Give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise I may have too much and disown you and say, “Who is the Lord?” or I may become poor and steal and so dishonor the name of God”  -Prov. 30:8-9

“You can not serve both God and money” -Matt. 6:24

“The earth is the Lord’s and everything in it, the world and all who live in it” – Psalm 24:1

see, we all struggle with money. Husbuddy and i are constantly discussing it, fighting about it, complaining about it… the list goes on. we never have as much as we wish we did. it is so easy to feel like there isn’t enough to go around us, so how can we give anything? but that’s the thing. if we believe and trust that God provides… that He provided the money to begin with… that He gives us what we need for TODAY… we know without a doubt that He will continue to provide for our today...every day

and if God provides the very breath that we breathe, how can we hold on to money like it’s ours to keep?

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{image from Owen’s blog}

this post is not to guilt you OR ME into anything, but i just wanted to share some of my heart.

i wanted to share with you my love for this little boy and his family.

and i wanted to share with you HOW AMAZING it is that God provides everything we have! even our very breath!

if you feel so inclined, you can donate to the Estes Van Campaign on this website:   https://www.youcaring.com/owensfamilyvan and you can read more details on this blog post: http://owenestes.wordpress.com/2013/11/04/campaign-for-a-new-van/  don’t worry, if you don’t donate, you can still pray! prayers have worked miracles before in this little boy’s life and i know they will continue to do so!

thank you in advance for all of your help and prayers!! may you experience the wonder of God’s providence in your own life today.

xoxo-kimberly renee

 

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10 weeks and counting {day 19 + baby bump!}

this is my reading list at the moment:

day 19

actually i forgot to include a huge pile of baby books. but let’s be honest, i’ve been a little overwhelmed with the baby stuff so i’ve been avoiding the books like the plague… doh. anyhoo…

you see my favorite study bible and journal. there’s also a book that Husbuddy and i started reading together this week. we like to do that every once in a while. pick up a book(it’s not always about marriage!!) and then each read a chapter or two (separately! we’re not good at doing it together) and then 1 day a week we go out for coffee (or make fancy hot chocolate at home) and talk about the chapter we just read. (whew, longest sentence ever with all the parenthesis! lol) since we only just started reading it, i can’t give too much of a review, but feel free to ask in a couple weeks! we are big fans of Driscoll though and we are always checking out new marriage books because we believe it’s SO important to keep working on our relationship. it’s been 7 years of doing this little ritual and i pray that we’ll still be doing it in 50 years!

the top book  on the pile is also new this week.  i picked up the Beth Moore book, Whispers of Hope,  it’s a 10 week study/practice of prayer.  it kind of stuck out to me at Barnes and Noble as i was searching for my sister’s Christmas present. 10 weeks of devotional prayer? that would be good for me! then i realized why “10 weeks” stuck out to me… i have 10 weeks until baby girl arrives! ah!

10 weeks of prayer.

70 days of practicing prayer before life gets turned upside down.

it’d be SO good for me. so i went with it. so far i’ve been convicted that i really DO desire a deeper prayer life and i know that baby girl won’t make it any easier. i’m hoping that these 70 days will be full of practicing prayer to 1. hold me over in the new phase of life, 2. help prepare my heart for being a mama, and 3. help me to keep praying when life looks different.

speaking of 10 weeks left… i owe you guys a baby bump update! it seems like we skip taking photos every couple of weeks for whatever random reason but here are the latest 3 photos!

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i feel HUGE. some days i look down and wonder how much bigger i could really get in the next 10 weeks. oh boy oh boy!

10 weeks will go by fast, right? i mean, could i really get THAT much bigger?

and really, i can’t take too much longer of Husbuddy calling me “humpty-dumpty”!! ha.

{ps, i am going to need a maternity winter a jacket because i can’t get any of my jackets to zip over the belly any more…anyone have an old one i can have?! or anyone want to donate to the cause of keeping the belly warm? hee hee. here’s to hoping the warm weather lasts a little longer! }

{pss: Husbuddy only calls me that when i’m in a really good mood and avoids calling me that when my emotions are out of control…which is like- all the time. so, don’t worry, i know he’s joking and he really has only called me that a couple times… no need to go yelling at him or anything. lol.}

xoxo-kimberly renee

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{this is part of a 31 day series about “Seeing Creatively” through the camera. to see the other 31 posts, click HERE}

 

 

 

 

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powerful prayer {& a printable}

 

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i’ve been struck recently with how often Jesus says to ask anything, in His name, and we will receive it. especially at the end of John:

“whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it.”  {John 14:13-14}

“you did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you” {John 15:16}

“until now you have asked nothing in My name; ask, and you will receive, so that your joy may be made full.” {John 16:24}

i have been convicted about praying more intentionally. it is SO important. we, as Christians, need to bring everything to the Father’s ears in Jesus name. and He promises over and over again that He will answer.

that is powerful!

how often do we say we are going to pray for someone but it slips our mind? or we forget after a couple of days? it’s so important to be constant in prayer.

prayer blue printable

 

Husbuddy and i were talking the other day about putting together a list of all the things we’re praying for because it’s so easy to loose track. when i started the list in my journal, he kept telling me people or things to add. our list got pretty long!

so i thought it would be fun to create a little graphic to make the prayer list pretty. because, you know, i like all things pretty. ha. so i’ve created these printables to share with you. prayer printable

my thought had been to print off two at a time so i could have one in my bible and Husbuddy could have one in his. if he doesn’t want it, i’ll save the second one for next month.

if i could be mindful about organizing my prayer, *hopefully* i can be mindful about praying a powerful prayer for everyone on my list.

Jesus says, just ask.

prayer blue printable up close

i also thought it would be fun to make an 8×10 print to frame or hang on your bathroom mirror or in your office. it’s a good reminder, whenever you see it, to just pray a quick prayer right then and there!

there are two versions, painted blue background or minimalist white. just print off the pdf and cut out along the line and hang!

prayer blue printable on mirror

just click on the link below to download your own free printable pdf:

cut it out, frame it or just tape it up somewhere and may you remember how powerful prayer really is.

{if you want to see more posts about prayer, i did a whole 31-day series on it last year. check it out here}

xoxo-kimberly renee

 

 

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a birthday prayer

i have a little list of birthday prayers today for my love. today Husbuddy is turning 28! this post is just a public celebration of my prayers for him. thanks for praying for him with me. 🙂

my sweet love, these things i pray for you.

  • i pray for you to be more healthy this year than last.  it’s been a tough one and i hope in my heart that you will be healthy and happy…. to be able to run and frolic with the other kids. haha. no seriously. may you find real God-given-health.
  • i pray for the adventures we’re going to have in your 28th year! new beginnings! new places to explore together! i love exploring with you! we always have so  much fun together and there are so many new places to go this year!
  • i pray for your heart– that you would know true peace in Christ this year. that He may be growing you and molding you constantly more into who He’s created you to be. peace is something that can’t be bought. it can’t be manufactured. it is only given as a gift. may you find Christ’s true peace and may you live in it this year.
  • i pray that i will be able to show you better love this year. i so love being your wife! but sometimes i’m not very good at showing you that. i want to though. please know that i want to be better at loving and respecting you.
  • i pray that God continues to call you. to call you BY NAME. and to call you to His purpose. may you see more and more of God’s calling on your life every day. and may you be up to it-never shrinking from the responsibility and the challenge.

happy birthday my love, my best friend, my Husbuddy!

xoxo-kimberly renee

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prayer – learning to listen part2 {day #31}

it’s our last day of talking about prayer! i’m so excited to be done because i’m so worn out from doing a post for every day. BUT i’m also kind of sad. i haven’t really gotten any better at prayer. i’ve just thought about it a lot. it’s been interesting. i wish i was better, more thoughtful, more consistent, closer to God… but it just takes practice! and 31 days is not enough practice yet! 😉

so for today’s last post, we’re going to talk about listening again. i think this is such an important part of prayer that we don’t really know how to do. like yesterday when i talked about how important it is to BE STILL.  well now we need to practice listening.

last week, at a class for seminary wives, we heard a speaker talk about her life and about spiritual formation. it was very fruitful and i wish i could transport each of you there to hear what i heard from her! but alas, you’re stuck with my sub-par summary and conclusions from  it.

we talked about when Jesus rose from the dead in John 20:

11″ But Mary stood weeping outside the tomb, and as she wept she stooped to look into the tomb.12 And she saw two angels in white, sitting where the body of Jesus had lain, one at the head and one at the feet. 13 They said to her, “Woman, why are you weeping?” She said to them, “They have taken away my Lord, and I do not know where they have laid him.” 14 Having said this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing, but she did not know that it was Jesus. 15 Jesus said to her, “Woman, why are you weeping? Whom are you seeking?” Supposing him to be the gardener, she said to him, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have laid him, and I will take him away.” 16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.” She turned and said to him in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means Teacher). 17 Jesus said to her, “Do not cling to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father; but go to my brothers and say to them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’” 18 Mary Magdalene went and announced to the disciples, “I have seen the Lord”—and that he had said these things to her.”

why was Mary sad? her beloved Jesus was gone. not only had he been killed only a couple days earlier, but now it appeared as if he was stolen. but as she was weeping, Jesus appeared to her. she didn’t even recognize him when he was standing in front of her. she supposed him to be a gardener. not until He said her name.  He called her by name.

it makes me think of a couple things.

  • how often have we cried out to Jesus in our pain and we haven’t noticed Him standing right there? we’re weeping and feeling so alone. but HE is THERE. He always is.  i love how this song by David Crowder : “this is all i can say” really portrays how sometimes it’s impossible to do anything, just cry to Him, and when we do, we finally notice He’s standing right there.
  • He showed himself to Mary. before anyone else. this is a beautiful example that God knows exactly what we need. He didn’t show himself to the other disciples until later… but Mary was so distraught and hurt and alone that He knew she needed Him. She needed His comfort. He gives us what we need.
  • He called her by name. He calls you by name. He calls me by name. He knows you. it is such a beautiful thought! do you believe it?
  • He gives her something to do. He tells her to go and tell the disciples what she has seen. He gives her a calling. He also has a calling for each of us. He has something for us to do until He returns again.

i think it’s going to take me even longer to process all of this. but it’s beautiful to think about, don’t you think? so, then the speaker had three questions for us to ask Jesus:

  1. What does Jesus call you when you talk together? Ask him now. Listen.
  2. What question is he asking you now? Listen.
  3. What is Jesus calling you to- to do, or to be? Listen.

Listen my friends. Listen to what He calls you. What He asks you. What He is calling you.  Just take a few moments to listen to Jesus. {::there’s also this song:: “come and listen” by David Crowder that may help in listening. :)}

May you fall more in love with your Savior through prayer and through listening to Him my friends.

since it’s the last day of the series i wanted to share with you a couple other books on prayer that come highly recommended by Husbuddy: Praying by JI Packer & Carolyn Nystrom {amazon link here} and  Prayer Finding the Heart’s True Home by Richard J. Foster. {amazon link here}

thanks for being here this month! it’s been a great month learning more how to practice prayer, and i appreciate each of you for being here.  please share if you learned anything new this month! i’d love to hear from you!!

in His love and joy, kimberly renee.

to see the other 31 prayer posts click HERE:

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prayer -to listen & obey {day #29}

this morning in my devotional i went through 1st Samuel 23:1-6

“…Therefore David inquired of the Lord, “Shall I go and attack these Philistines?” And the Lord said to David, “Go and attack the Philistines and save Keilah.” But David’s men said to him, “Behold, we are afraid here in Judah; how much more then if we go to Keilah against the armies of the Philistines?” Then David inquired of the Lord again. And the Lord answered him, “Arise, go down to Keilah, for I will give the Philistines into your hand.” And David and his men went to Keilah and fought with the Philistines and brought away their livestock and struck them with a great blow. So David saved the inhabitants of Keilah.”

David asks God what to do. God answers him. David believes him the first time, but his men are a little doubtful. i would be too if it meant my life was more in danger if we followed those directions. so David asks again. and God answers him AGAIN.

i love that God was so evident and real in David’s life. and i love that David listens so well.

the study went on to eventually say:

“David did not ask God a second time because he doubted God, but because he needed to be certain. In the same way, you or I might ask God to reconfirm His direction-not because we doubt God’s Word, but because we question our understanding. To doubt God in the face of clear direction is disobedience, but to double-check our understanding and interpretation of God’s will is prudent”

(from Beth Moore’s David, 90 Days to a heart like His)

here David listens. truly listens to what God has for him. how often do we shut up enough in our requests to God to just listen? can we quiet our hearts enough?

David also proves something else:: David proves that it’s ok to question God’s direction.  sometimes we aren’t sure if what we heard is really right. did we just make it up in our heads? it’s OK to ask God to confirm his direction, because it was ok for David to ask.  if David was wrong he would have put all his men in more danger than they were already in. he would have led them to slaughter. so it was good to double check. He didn’t doubt or disobey. he just asked God to confirm his direction.

 i don’t think any of us are really in his exact situation… but all of our big decisions have consequences.  how often do we honestly seek God and pray for his direction in them? and how often do we listen? and how often do we double check it and then obey? just some hard thoughts for today.

{this is day 29 of 31 days of prayer! thanks so much for being here!

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